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I am Broken: I Have a Redeemer

When My son Jack was born. He was the most frail and beautiful thing I had ever seen. I remember the pride and terror that I had when I realized this tiny boy was mine. dependent on me for everything.

He was amazing.

He was tiny.

He was mine.

I was now a mom.

As an unmarried mother, I wrestled with the idea of God’s love for me and an actual belief in God’s love for me.

A positive pregnancy test months earlier had set off a string of new realities in my life, one of which was a strong feeling of my own lack of worth. I had messed up. I had disappointed people I loved. I was on my way to being a mom when I was barely able to take care of myself.

I was no longer the “good girl”.

And I wondered, sometimes out loud, if God still loved me.

Pain mixed with a little shock, a ton of remorse, and lots of uncertainty left me feeling unlovable, nonredeemable, and out of God’s good graces. It felt as if I had traveled to the ends of the earth and was there alone, in the dark, and in the cold. While I had always believed that God loved me during those days of new motherhood, sometimes I didn’t feel it.

But apparently during one of those lonely, dark, cold moments, I reached for my Bible and searched for reassurance of God’s love for me. All of my life I had been taught to believe that He loved me no matter what. I just wanted proof. I needed a reminder that I could rest in and rehearse so that I wouldn’t forget or doubt the reality of His love in my life.

I found one verse of assurance and wrote it down on a sheet of notebook paper. That one verse became two, then five, then over time became two pages of Scriptures that reminded me that God loved me. I kept those pieces of notebook paper with me at all times – folded up in my pocket or in my purse or in my diaper bag.

Recently, I thought about those pieces of paper and dug them out of an old drawer. They were still intact even though they’d yellowed with time. I remember how difficult it was to accept God’s love for me when I felt that I didn’t deserve it.

But here’s what I was reminded of as I allowed God’s Word to remind me of the truth — God gave Himself for me to redeem me from every lawless deed.

The little ones.

The big ones.

Every single one.

I now know that whether we are a new Christian or even if we’ve been a Christian for awhile, we need his redeeming love every single day. But we must accept that love and live in light of Christ’s sacrifice for us.  Sometimes that means walking with Him in daily obedience in small ways. Other times, that means accepting His love and forgiveness as we seek to recover from the consequences of our sin.

In either case, God’s work in us is a work of sanctification. He teaches us as we walk with Him and as we study the truth in His Word.

John 17:16-17 New King James Version (NKJV)

16 They are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. 17 Sanctify them by Your truth. Your word is truth.

What it means to be holy, set apart as sacred, and consecrated to His purposes.

We just have to choose to believe that His redeeming work is still at work in us — no matter how far we think we may have fallen. And as we believe and act out that belief, He changes us.

The key is to believe.

Believe that you are loved — because you are.

1 John 3:1 New Living Translation (NLT)

3 See how very much our Father loves us, for he calls us his children, and that is what we are! But the people who belong to this world don’t recognize that we are God’s children because they don’t know him.

Believe that God redeems — because He does.

Galatians 3:13 New Living Translation (NLT)

13 But Christ has rescued us from the curse pronounced by the law. When he was hung on the cross, he took upon himself the curse for our wrongdoing. For it is written in the Scriptures, “Cursed is everyone who is hung on a tree.”

Believe that God will produce good works in you — because He can. 

Philippians 1:6 New Living Translation (NLT)

And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.

And regardless of what is in your past or facing you now in your present, believe that God is never ceasing in His grace, mercy, and compassion. The redeeming work of the cross is available to you and me each and every day.

Years later, that Son is now 18 and graduated high school. While I remember the struggle of his younger years, it doesn’t define my life — the redeeming work of God does. My life is marked by His goodness, His kindness, His mercy, and His never-ending love. And I know without a shadow of a doubt that He makes beautiful the broken because I’ve seen Him do that for me.

Search out the truth of God’s Word. Choose to believe what it says over how you feel. Then act as if you really do believe His Word is true.

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I am Broken: Boast in the Lord

1 Corinthians 1:26-31

Brothers and sisters, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. 27 But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. 28 God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, 29 so that no one may boast before him. 30 It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption. 31 Therefore, as it is written: “Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord.”

It happened to be one of those Sunday mornings.

You know the ones.

After getting up a little too late and rushing through mine and Jackson’s bath and Daniel’s shower. Throwing together an outfit that fits and does not look too bad. Getting breakfast and arguing with Jackson about what he is wearing, running a brush through my hair and spending less than five minutes on makeup. Sliding into church and sitting down already exhausted for Sunday school. And then I see them, the perfect family all in matching clothes.

How do these people pull off looking like they have their acts together week after week?

My friend across the aisle smiled and waved, and I shot back the best “church smile” I could muster as sweat beads slowly dripped down my back. As the Sunday school teacher began to teach, I desperately wanted to prepare my heart for worship. I wanted to have it all together and give my best to Jesus. But all I could think about was the impatience, anger, and harsh words that had hijacked our morning.

The five minute drive to church had humbled us. Apologies were offered and forgiveness was extended. But sitting in Sunday School dressed in our best and trying to pretend like nothing had happened – left me feeling like an imposter.

Man, we’re broken. 

When we head into church I see it. The communion table set. The Lord’s Supper, really?… today of all days?! I instantly felt so unworthy.





In my pride, I had wanted our family to walk through those church doors that morning looking like we had our act together. I wanted to be strong instead of weak. I wanted to be polished instead of falling apart. I wanted to settle in on that Sunday morning – and every day for that matter – feeling pretty great about myself and all that I had accomplished. But the church isn’t a perfect place full of perfect people.

In fact, it’s quite the opposite.

It’s a place for the sick to come and find hope – not in their own wisdom, status, or performance – but in the person and work of Jesus.

It’s where the truth of who He is trumps our flaws and failures; where we worship Him for the depth of His forgiveness and the newness of His mercies.

It’s where the broken are welcomed and where the weary can find rest; where His wisdom reigns over the hardness of our hearts and the loud voices of the world.

It’s where once again we can find the end of ourselves at the foot of the cross, humbled by His sacrifice and amazed by His transforming power in us.

It’s where we can be filled up to go out and proclaim to a lost world that it isn’t us – but rather Him – who has done it all.





This is Christ. Hallelujah, this is Christ in us!

“Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord.”

One of my favorite verses is 2 Corinthians 12:9

And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

It is actually the verse that is the anchor verse for my book. We have to drop that pride and realize that we are weak and need God’s grace. But it doesn’t stop there, we need share our weaknesses with others because they can see what God has done for us.

In what areas are you tempted to boast in yourself instead of the Lord? Like Paul, where is God calling you to speak up and boldly make much of Him?

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When God Feels Far Away

When the Lord Jesus was here on earth, He walked and talked with His disciples. How they enjoyed His presence! But one day He told them that He would soon be leaving them. The disciples were saddened at the thought that the Lord Jesus was going to leave them. Jesus said,

“Because I have said these things unto you, sorrow has filled your heart. Nevertheless I tell you the truth; it is expedient (better) for you that I go away…” (John 16:6-7)

The disciples could not understand how it could possibly be better for them if Jesus went away. But Jesus explained to them that He would send them the Holy Spirit. He said, ” But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.” (John 14:26) He would come, not just to be with them, but to live in them. Jesus said,

“At that day you will know that I am in My Father, and you in Me, and I in you.” John 14:20

On the Day of Pentecost, the Holy Spirit came to live in His disciples. They were filled with joy! They went everywhere telling the wonderful news that Jesus Christ was alive and that He was Lord of all.

Best of all, they knew Christ was living in them and they enjoyed living in God’s presence. The Holy Spirit made Christ as real to them as He had been when He was with them in His bodily presence.

Christ Dwells in Every Believer

Just as the Lord Jesus lived in the hearts of those first disciples, so He lives in the hearts of His believers today. Christ lives in us by the Holy Spirit.

What does the Holy Spirit do for us? He makes Christ real to us. He causes us to feel convicted or bad when we sin. He enables us to enjoy a life in His presence. He takes the things of Christ and reveals them to us. The Lord Jesus said this about the Holy Spirit:

“He will bring glory to me by taking from what is mine and making it known to you. All things that the Father has are Mine. Therefore I said that He will take from what is Mine and make it known to you.” John 16:14-15

The ministry of the Holy Spirit is to make Christ as real to us as He was to His first disciples. Many Christians feel that God and Jesus are far away. They say, “I believe the Bible, I pray, I go to church, but I don’t feel close to God. Why is this?”

First, we need to point out that there are some people that think they are Christians, but they have never been truly born again. Christ is not real to them because they do not belong to Him, and the Holy Spirit does not live in them. The Bible says,

“If anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he is not His.” (Romans 8:9)

As for those who are truly born again, the reason God feels so distant to them is that they are grieving the Holy Spirit or they have not invested in their relationship with God.

The Holy Spirit is a being. He thinks, wills, enjoys, loves, desires, and suffers as any other beings would. He can be grieved. When we grieve the Holy Spirit, we create spiritual walls between God and ourselves. He can no longer show you Christ(because the wall is blocking it), and we lose our sense of the Lord’s presence. Christ never leaves us, but He does seem closer to us at times? Think about the times you felt close to God. What was happening. Chances are you were striving hard to live the best christian life. And when he felt far away, did were you living for God or yourself?

Many Christians do not know that they are grieving the Holy Spirit. Therefore, we need to understand what grieves Him and how to avoid it.

What Grieves the Holy Spirit?

There are a number of things that grieve the Holy Spirit. Let us consider some of them.

Unconfessed sin.

The Bible says that if we confess our sins and turn from them, God will forgive us. But, if we do not confess our sins and give them up, these sins come between us and God, and the Holy Spirit is grieved. The Bible says,

“If I regard iniquity (sin) in my heart, the Lord will not hear me.” Psalm 66:18

We may have offended someone but we refuse to apologize and make things right with that person. Or someone may have offended us, but we refuse to forgive him. We hold resentment against him. We are disobeying the Lord in some matter. There may be attitude sins such as pride, selfishness, or a rebellious spirit. Whatever sin it may be, if we hold on to it, we are grieving the Holy Spirit, and we cannot sense and enjoy the Lord’s presence.

Being taken up with the cares of this world.

The Holy Spirit wants to take the things of Christ and reveal them to us. We learn about the things of Christ in God’s Word. Therefore, we must spend time in prayer and the study of God’s Word so that the Holy Spirit can teach us the things of Christ. This is also the building blocks of a good relationship with God. The more we talk and listen the stronger the relationship becomes.

It is very easy to become so involved with the problems and cares of this life that we do not take time for the things of God. Jesus said,

“but the worries of this life, the deceitfulness of wealth and the desires for other things come in and choke the word, making it unfruitful. ” Mark 4:19

The Holy Spirit is grieved when we allow things to “choke” the Word of God. We can determine the level of our spiritual experience by asking ourselves, “How much do I love God’s Word? How much time do I spend with the Lord each day?”


Satan uses the world with all of its glitter to draw Christians away from God.

Someone has given this definition of worldliness: Anything that keeps me from enjoying God’s love and wanting to do God’s will.

Each day the Holy Spirit longs to open God’s Word to us, to reveal to us the riches of Christ, and to show us all that we have in Him. But many of God’s children do not take time for Him. Instead they spend hours and hours each week watching television, reading worldly literature, going to wrong places, and doing wrong things. They love the things of the world and devote their time to them. They constantly associate with people who do not know God or care about Him, or with Christians who are disobedient and have no desire to grow spiritually. It is no wonder that God is not real to them. The Bible says,

“Do you not know that friendship with the world is enmity with God? Whoever therefore wants to be a friend of the world makes himself an enemy of God.” James 4:4

To enjoy the presence of the Lord Jesus Christ in our heart, we must stop doing those things that grieve the Holy Spirit. And we must start doing those things that please Him. The Bible says,

“Do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, by whom you were sealed for the day of redemption.” Ephesians 4:30

Getting Right with God

God is holy and He cannot have fellowship with us when we have unconfessed sin in our life. Sin separates us from God. The Bible says,

“Behold, the LORD’S hand is not shortened, that it cannot save; neither His ear heavy, that it cannot hear. But your iniquities have separated you from your God; and your sins have hidden His face from you, so that He will not hear.” Isaiah 59:1-2

We receive eternal forgiveness when we are saved. When Jesus died on the cross, He bore all our sins—past, present and future. By His death on the cross, He paid for every sin we could possibly commit during our whole lifetime. When we are born again, we become God’s child forever.

But once we come into God’s family, there is the matter of our fellowship with our heavenly Father. Sin breaks our fellowship with Him. If a child of God should sin and continue in that sin without confessing it to God, he still remains God’s child, but his sins have broken his fellowship with the Father. He needs forgiveness to restore fellowship. We must deal with those sins which have come between us and our Father.

We cannot deal with our sins collectively by praying, “Lord, please forgive me of all my sins.” Our sins were committed one by one, and we must deal with them one by one.

Right now, get a sheet of paper. Start listing every sin in your life that you can think of, numbering them as you write them down. Be honest with God. The Bible says,

“If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we say that we have not sinned, we make Him a liar, and His word is not in us.” 1 John 1:8, 10

Do not take this lightly. You are doing business with God. Think over your life carefully and write down every sin you can think of. Be honest with yourself. No one need see this list but you and God. You may need to work on this list over a period of time.

When you have written down all the sins you can think of, ask God to show you the sins in your life that you have not thought of. This is what the psalmist was doing when he prayed,

“Search me, O God, and know my heart; try me, and know my thoughts; And see if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.” Psalm 139:23-24

If you are sincere in this prayer, God will show you additional sins in your life. Add these to your list of sins. Give God time to go over your life and bring sins to your mind

After you have spent time on this first list, start a second list. On this list, write down the things you are doing that do not bring joy to God’s heart. There may be a number of things in your life that you do not regard as sins; yet you know that they are not pleasing to God. As God’s children, we have a responsibility to bring joy to His heart.

What to do about your Sins

When you have spent time on the list of your sins and the list of the things that do not bring joy to God, you are ready to ask God to forgive you of all these sins. The Bible says,

“If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” 1 John 1:9

The only way to get right with God is to come to Him and humbly confess our sins. What does it mean “to confess our sins”? The word “confess” means to “say the same thing.” To confess our sins to God means that we are saying the same thing about them that God says about them. If we lied, we need to say that we lied. If we stole, we need to say that we stole. The blood of Jesus Christ cleanses us from sins that we confess as sins, but it does not cleanse us from sins for which we make excuses.

What does it mean when it says that God is “faithful” to forgive our sins? It means that He keeps His Word. God has said that He will forgive us, and He always keeps His word.

What does it mean when it says that God is “just” in forgiving us our sins? It means that He is righteous in forgiving us because Christ has paid the penalty of our sins. God sees those sins as being placed on Christ on the cross. Because Christ died for our sins, God can righteously forgive us.

Now that we understand this, we are ready to confess our sins to God, one by one. Take the first sin on your list and say,

“Father, I have sinned against You by (name the sin). Right now I am confessing this sin to You and asking You to forgive me. I thank You that Jesus Christ shed His precious blood for this sin.”

It may help you to think of placing that sin on Christ on the cross. That sin has now been transferred from you to Christ. It has been paid for by His death, and it is no longer on you.

Do the same thing with each sin on your list. Go down the entire list, one by one, confessing each sin to God and asking His forgiveness. Then go to the list of things that are not pleasing to God. One by one, confess these to God. When you have completed this, ask, “Lord, is there anything else in my life that needs to be confessed and forsaken?”

We want our hearts cleansed from all sin and all defilement of sin. Therefore, it is good to ask the Lord to cleanse us with the precious blood of Christ from anything that would hinder our fellowship with Him.

Every sin that you have confessed to God is now forgiven. When we confess our sins, “He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”

God not only forgives us, but He also forgets these sins. He says,

“Their sins and iniquities will I remember no more.” Hebrews 10:17

Ask the Holy Spirit to fill your Heart

If you are a child of God, the Holy Spirit is in your heart. He has been there since the moment you were born again. But if you have had sin in your life, then He has been unable to fill your life. Instead He has been grieved. Start making changes today.

True Repentance means a Change in your Life

When God’s children have been grieving the Holy Spirit, God calls on them to repent. God says,

“As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten; be zealous therefore, and repent.” Revelation 3:19

To repent of your sins means that you are sorry enough for them that you want to stop doing them.

David said, “I thought about my ways, and turned my feet to Your testimonies.” (Psalm 119:59) David realized that his ways were wrong and that he was hurting God’s heart. He turned from his wrong ways to God’s ways. That was true repentance.

Many times we pray and tell God that we are sorry for our sins and that we truly want to please Him, but the question is: Do we really mean what we say? God is not impressed with pious words and lovely prayers. He looks to see if there is a change in our actions. The Bible says,

“Talk no more so very proudly; let no arrogance come from your mouth. For the LORD is the God of knowledge; and by Him actions are weighed.” 1 Samuel 2:3

If you have truly repented and you truly want Christ to be real in your life, here are some things you will do:

You will put God first in your life.

It is one thing to say that you are putting God first in your life; it is another thing to live it out. But God will not accept any place other than first place. He purchased us with His own blood and we belong to Him. If God is truly first in our life, we will not let business, pleasure, work, or anything else be our main interest. If we put God first, He will take care of our needs. Jesus said,

“Seek first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness; and all these things will be added to you.” Matthew 6:33

You will love the Lord.

Trying to serve the Lord without loving Him is like being married to someone you don’t love. The heart of the relationship is missing.

The Lord Jesus loves us with all His heart, and He wants us to love Him with all our heart. Jesus said that the first and great commandment is this:

“You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind.” Matthew 22:37

You will turn from worldliness.

The Lord Jesus loved you enough to die for you, and He hates anything that would steal your heart from Him.

You will spend time with God.

A Christian who is so busy that he doesn’t have time to spend with God is fooling himself. He is like a man on a long car trip and says he is in such a hurry that he doesn’t have time to stop for gas.

Whatever cares and responsibilities we may have, we cannot let them crowd God out of our life. We must spend time with God in prayer and the study of His Word each day. We cannot overemphasize the importance of this. The Bible says of the Lord Jesus,

“Now in the morning, having risen a long while before daylight, He went out and departed to a solitary place, and there He prayed.” Mark 1:35

If the Son of God Himself found it necessary to spend time with His heavenly Father, how much more should we! I feel it is far better to begin with the day with God this is my most important Job.

If we love the Lord, obey His commandments, and spend time with Him, He will be real to us. The Lord Jesus said,

“He who has My commandments, and keeps them, it is he who loves Me. And he who loves Me will be loved by my Father, and I will love him and MANIFEST MYSELF TO HIM.” John 14:21